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You'll slip away slowly And fade like an old photograph You'll forget about my smile And I'll forget about your laugh All that will remain are fragments of our past In the glimpse of fleeting moments I always knew could never last

Soak into my flesh like the first rain of summer Absorbing into my cracked asphalt surface Quenching all the crumbling pieces with dewy affections Oil upon canvas sheets Slither and drip lazily Fulfilling me wherever I feel blank Empty space ridden heart Homeostasis for colorful words and art Bandaids for wounds which still itch and ache

Let me be your mirror So I can reflect my favorite parts of you I know you struggle to see Disenchant you of your ego So you can find beauty even in every broken piece Mosaic, melancholy Your story is not that of fairy tales Eyes turned towards the sea With neither wind nor holes amidst your sails Calm waters, prepare for tumult and storm Nourishing secret gardens, You'd rather walk amongst your thorns Taste of sweetest nectar Kept hidden like Eden's lush They try to drown themselves in your fruitful touch You question your ability to trust The fragility of yonic lust The stars have never been too big To satiate your captivated gaze Navigating this celestial maze Just to live amongst their haze Stardust fractal debris I wish that you could stay Gravitating towards me.. The way Moon dances in every phase Dark circles traced Spinning nights into daze I am the ocean calm rippling at the sight Of your beauty, So close lingering in the sky I could almos...

I am tired of taking the high road I want to be down in the gutter of your dirt As petty as I am pretty Drowning the sorrows of this hurt With a cold and calloused glass of whiskey

Found myself strolling down a sentimental street With too many complexities plaguing the vibes between you and me I tried to keep it discreet, but there's nothing quiet about my personality Far too much chaos and calamity clammoring underneath And I'm sorry my heart only operates at 250 'Cause where I thought you'd be accepting instead it turn to resenting and now I'm stuck scratching my head at the mess of the state you left me And that nice guy facade you kept defending Well it's clear cellophane now with the cold front you've been sending Honestly I'm done pretending you meant any of what you said Instead of acting like the signs were misread Like I didn't fall for all the bullshit you fed Like I didn't let your feelings fuck with my head But go ahead, Keep preaching that you're retrograded When really you let your flame burn red And now you're burnt out and faded with a heart half dead I always said you'd regret i...

It is far too difficult to understand why we pine for those who hurt us, Why we allow our love and energy to be expended on those who will never love us back ..at least not in the way we need to feel healthy and nurtured Just remember that a seed must first break before it sprouts, And that a flower bud needs rain to bloom. -rs.darko

I buried my face in the clothes you left behind Foolishly hoping some scent remained in them for me to miss, Desperately clinging to the fibers like they couldn't accept the terms of our goodbye, Like they couldn't forget the quiver of our last kiss Faded polaroid photos.. Snapshot facades convicted in a thousand lies of happiness Even pictures could see that those memories were never meant to last And finally they and we could rest To be honest, I barely recognize the man from those photos And I've forgotten who that girl is...

I am a creator of many things, And a destroyer of more, A curator of admirers Like most collections I have no need for.. I've grown out of this affinity for love and lore Still I pine for distractions whenever I'm bored - rs.darko

When our wants grow beyond our means to attain them, we must then look inward and ask, "what do I need?" Because only when we nourish ourselves with that which we need, can we realize that the wants to exceed the brim of this chalice is only with profound understanding of self. You cannot overflow that which is empty of substance. "Feeling Abundant" - rs.darko

Mountain needs no sun Mountain has enough fire for one Tectonic shift Some may say destructive But the glow of magma resides, Hiding, buried deep within Sifts through rubble earth, Salt rock and pressure Surfacing gieser gushing through internal weather A power no man can measure Let mountain find pleasure, Patience, Self-addressed love letters Mountain turned volcano And she's never felt better

Being alone doesn't have to mean being lonely It's not like you could possibly be the only One who's been thinking, wishing, "If only they could hold me..." A common thought and yet not often spoken boldly When you're scared of being torn apart, Because you've barely begun unfolding I crafted myself this paper crane heart To fly away before it's stolen, While the weight of my words Keep pressing pause like semicolon Leave them speechlessly in awe, Feeling moved, though their feet are frozen This might not be the life we'd chosen But it's the truth we choose to speak Trampled earth remains the same no matter underneath whose feet Footprints in the sand reveal it's always just been me Push and pull of currents, still my gaze turned towards the sea Reflected depths of mystery Layers of both darkness and clarity I need both to fully see Transcendental in whatever my mental state may be I remind myself how to breathe Soli...

I know we've all been here before We've all seen the red flags Blaringly taboo But he's so sweet, and we're so cute together So how could this be bad? "Baby," "babe," "bae," "boo" Of course these couldn't be names to make a pet out of you No that can't be true There is a closeness between us already that I can see We've only been talking for about a week And he just can't seem to keep his hands off me Probably cause we had sex that one night So now he can't help it but expect it, but it's all right It feels fine, and I feel fine I guess, yeah, I'm his now and he's mine That's good, right? That means I'm sexy That means he wants me I do love having someone next to me Even if we aren't talking... I think maybe he's just a reserved kind of guy Maybe he’s just a little bit shy Yeah and maybe one day you'll realize That the word "excuses...

When you left me, you left me in darkness So much so that the sun was doomed to perish, The moon to lose its luster, And all the strength I could muster Was tied up behind the horse and carriage Of a fairy tale ending that never happened Saddened, My tears carved canyons into my bedrock Left me jagged with this stepping razor tongue And words like bullets to keep my pen cocked - rs.darko

It only hurts when I remember that I'm falling for words you wrote for someone else.. - rs.darko

I picked up the feathers from the wings you clipped Armed myself with inkwell confessions And leather bound solace

Maybe number five or number six I believe that's which one I am Out of all of your kids Kinda hard to keep track to be honest Met another one last August And that part wasn't even the hardest Because you abandoned her too Left us to grow in the dying carcass That should have been a relationship with you It was weird missing a stranger Because every time you'd try to meet up, Something always had to come up Still I begged my mom to wait just a little bit longer.. All I wanted was a father Always wondered how you could deny me as your daughter Was it easy? Born into this feeling of inadequacy Because you didn't want me Maybe you just felt guilty Or maybe you just forgot about me So rejection became the normalcy Well acquainted myself with my own mortality Over that longing for duality I suppose I never got enough vitamin D And M seemed to be just a little too busy So I supplemented those spaces With the faces of other men Always loved my step...

Beware the reigniting of old flames Not to burn yourself down. @rs.darko

Haven't you heard? I've been singing the songs of hummingbirds Clinging to your petals like the last word Allow me to collect the nectar from your lips Sweetest dew, as it condenses upon our kiss In lovers tryst Is where I allow these daydreams to exist It's hard to resist When I'm just as lush as succulents Filled with reluctance Of what could possibly come next Still I'm vexed And feeling somewhat wrecked Embarrassed by my reckless intent Enamored by an evening I had tried to forget @rs.darko

I am inspiration I am guile I am simultaneously victory and defeat I am the stars in your eyes I am the ground beneath your feet I am your branches in the wind I am a cool, summer breeze I am the pollen on your lashes I am your memories of the sea I am an open book I am a home for hearts on sleeves I am magic I am forgiveness I am the taste of reveries I am a cloudy day of snowstorms, and still, I am insatiable for more I am the sound of sadness As it trickles on the floor I am a naked shoulder I am the running stream of tears I am heartache I am self-doubt I am the plight of wasted years I am the winter chill Sending goose bumps through your clothes I am missing you But I miss myself the most

He uses my own scars against me Creating new ones of his own design It's not his strength that I'm intimidated by Nor the look in his eyes when he's making me cry It's that I start to "understand" why I could deserve punishment just for enjoying the warmth of my shine