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I want to tell you "fuck you" I do.. But the only words to escape did not describe the hate Seething at the brim of my eyelids Okay, "hate" is strong and mostly inaccurate Because I really only hate feeling so foolish "Fuck this shit" "Fuck me" I can't close these heavy things Without envisioning your smile behind them I want to say any of this to you, But all I could construe From this scene of trite obscenities is "I miss you" And "What did I do?" I've never been so confused As to how somebody could feel as deeply as you do And still turn both eyes blind To the massacre such affections could possibly leave behind Add me to the collection of heartache in your wake Tell me that it was not my love you wished to take Or hers, or hers, or hers.. Tell me about how your disclaimer helps you sleep at night Even though I know it still keeps you up Analyst of all things thought and yet you still cannot

"Things remain dark when you're looking thru closed eyes Blindly crashed and burned after one too many rides Now capsized and broken against salty altlantic tides.. Still, I taste freedom in the wind, Sultry touch of sunshine upon my skin And thru this winding road it's been A slow repentance of my faults and sins, Tho it's been some time since I captured that pretty smile in my Polaroid prints Back when we were on the fence Between living life or death Whispers of hidden truths muttered underneath my breath With a guilty heart pounding symphonies behind my chest Back then I wore it best upon denim patchwork sleeves Rolled up in dried tobacco leaves Still I exhale and release Staying lost in daydreams and moonlight reveries." - R. Darko™ Written 2/17/18

There is a warmth of merriment amongst the winter chill Frost preys upon my pain as it creeps up from the windowsill Mind wanders, sorting through usual stress Buried under paper piles Spending my worthwhile Cleaning someone else's mess Hard to remember around this time How incredibly blessed we are The best lessons are the ones learned without intention Never sought, yet somehow they find us Remind us of a time when winter outlived summer, Dreams outgrew our wonder, Rain drowned out our thunder, And darkness seemed to live on forever Now in the distance, I see a faint green and red glimmer A guiding Light home for every prodigal sinner The colder weather gives us a reason to cuddle up together Appreciate getting close, Enjoy the silence of a first snow Gloved fingers interlacing show The only feeling we should cover up Is the chill between our toes Open up Your arms, your hearts, your home You're not Selfish, overwhelmed, alone Give up (the pursuit o

Cozy like my favorite cardigan, Turned cold as winter chill The kind of weather which calls for a sweater, Making me crave your comfort still.. - rs.darko

If you want me to love you, prepare to be written about Prepare to be addressed infinitely to the souls of others who will recognize you as either the hero, or the villain My most precious piece of heart, the half I choose to stitch into my sleeves Prepare to be my voice box when the salt of tears have corroded my esophagus And my gut has transformed into a pile of wet needles Dive into me instead like a pile of leaves Prepare to be the sun, the moon, and all which surrounds them Prepare to be burned at both ends Whether for blessings or for destruction Be born anew every morning And die again in my arms at night Let me love you Let me make you the thing of dreams and legends Let me whisper of your darkness into naked ears And show them how to bathe in the solace of your Light - rs.darko

He wanted my Light, Then covered his face in the presence of my shadow.. Realizing mine was a mere reflection of his own. That he was the sun burning up in glory, and I was a thief in the night, awake to tell his story.

When he said he needed space, I gave him moons and stars. But nothing was enough to take away the emptiness in between, To replace his desire for distance with a desire to make me his world. I still love him the way the moon loves the sun... From afar, in the shadows where his Light still illuminates me with a blush across my cheeks. ☀️🌎🌙 - rs.darko

I am tired of taking the high road I want to be down in the gutter of your dirt As petty as I am pretty Drowning the sorrows of this hurt With a cold and calloused glass of whiskey

We've been tiptoeing along this edge for too long Flirting with the idea of sacred wrongs I want to memorize your crescendo like a song I like Tempt my tongue with the taste of insight I thought I was well acquainted with this badness, Really just compensation for my love of sadness, Now torture becomes this madness.. Thighs caressed, lips licked wet I beg you to show me what bad is In ways I have yet to imagine, Hungry for my lucid daydreams of you, Come feed me in this time of famine Drench me amidst the desert drought And I'll show you how you quench my thirst from the inside out Bitten lip solace Secrets whispered upon flesh Queen turned Goddess As our molecules entangle and mesh Commanding phallus Tastes of vulnerability and control As I lick labrynths into skin And find my way into your soul You bless me in the satisfaction Of natural reaction Without holding back for fear of distraction I cannot distract that which the spirit commands of me Blaz

I release these tears as to relieve them of their grief. Let them taste the freedom from the black hole which has grown inside me. Absence of Light, where I once was whole. Lightning thief - quickly came and left with the shine they stole. - rs.darko

You don't see me because I am dirty I don't look like you, So you don't look at me, only through.. Still my invisible appearance makes you uncomfortable Jagged fingernails lined in black grime I'd forgotten what clean attention felt like My voice is soft spoken ashamed and unheard Sour breath delivery reveals lack of dental work Not because I don't care but because I haven't had insurance in 3 years And sometimes I don't know if I'll eat I haven't posted the Instagram since then since I got kicked out in the street My parents struggle with their own addictions They no longer have mine to keep Unburdened by the thought of whether I'm back up on my feet

Found myself strolling down a sentimental street With too many complexities plaguing the vibes between you and me I tried to keep it discreet, but there's nothing quiet about my personality Far too much chaos and calamity clammoring underneath And I'm sorry my heart only operates at 250 'Cause where I thought you'd be accepting instead it turn to resenting and now I'm stuck scratching my head at the mess of the state you left me And that nice guy facade you kept defending Well it's clear cellophane now with the cold front you've been sending Honestly I'm done pretending you meant any of what you said Instead of acting like the signs were misread Like I didn't fall for all the bullshit you fed Like I didn't let your feelings fuck with my head But go ahead, Keep preaching that you're retrograded When really you let your flame burn red And now you're burnt out and faded with a heart half dead I always said you'd regret i

It is far too difficult to understand why we pine for those who hurt us, Why we allow our love and energy to be expended on those who will never love us back ..at least not in the way we need to feel healthy and nurtured Just remember that a seed must first break before it sprouts, And that a flower bud needs rain to bloom. -rs.darko

I buried my face in the clothes you left behind Foolishly hoping some scent remained in them for me to miss, Desperately clinging to the fibers like they couldn't accept the terms of our goodbye, Like they couldn't forget the quiver of our last kiss Faded polaroid photos.. Snapshot facades convicted in a thousand lies of happiness Even pictures could see that those memories were never meant to last And finally they and we could rest To be honest, I barely recognize the man from those photos And I've forgotten who that girl is...

Yeah RS.D It could be easy Get caught up in the steez Just remember to breathe Deep, deep, deep, deep.. **** You know I come through with the realness Haters might try to bite and steal this Ay, but they just don't know Exactly what it takes to get up on my level Ha, I been surviving through the struggle Mhmm, and I've been striving through the hustle Hermione Granger when I thought I was a muggle I guess great power takes a while to uncover Now I been conjuring this patronis Getting freaky Girl you know where the patron is Yeah, it's prob'ly up in my fridge How ya think I got myself this beautiful kid? Haha, but to be honest I'm not looking to party Just tryna reacquaint y'all's spirits and bodies Reconnect your soul with the depths of your mind Make sure you remember to always give yourself time To grow, to go, to smoke the 'dro Another day, another dollar, Still seem two cents short Mem'ry bank deposits with nouns and verbs Now

You know it's hard to keep resisting After the first time you leaned over and kissed me For so long I know we both been feeling empty And now it's just so hard to try and keep up with this friend thing You know you're just so tempting The way you like to trace my curves into my leggings I'm feeling open like I'm venting Maybe one night I could show you if you let me Now I can't stop what we done started Pulse racing, pulsating in parts, yeah Made me forget that I was feeling broken-hearted Baby I promise we ain't seen the best part yet..