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I wake up dizzied by thoughts of you Circling round Like a knock out, Then I spend the rest of the day Icing away the pain Bumps and bruises on my decrepit heart Riddled like graffiti street art In stitches and scars, You itch my idea of wholeness How your gaze holds me like a spotlight In the warmth of your fleeting affection I've never known this kind of attention And I long for the days of ignorance Before making your acquaintance Before initiating this Back and forth dance Of readiness Unsteadiness Of hoping to bask in your loveliness To waking thoughts of how much I'm dreading this Love me, love me not Petals dismembered Like limbs from my lifeless body Hoping maybe someday You'll land on "love me" This hope remains My heartache's only remedy Echoing in masochistic melody Bloody and still outliving the disappointment of our yesterday

We've been tiptoeing along this edge for too long Flirting with the idea of sacred wrongs I want to memorize your crescendo like a song I like Tempt my tongue with the taste of insight I thought I was well acquainted with this badness, Really just compensation for my love of sadness, Now torture becomes this madness.. Thighs caressed, lips licked wet I beg you to show me what bad is In ways I have yet to imagine, Hungry for my lucid daydreams of you, Come feed me in this time of famine Drench me amidst the desert drought And I'll show you how you quench my thirst from the inside out Bitten lip solace Secrets whispered upon flesh Queen turned Goddess As our molecules entangle and mesh Commanding phallus Tastes of vulnerability and control As I lick labrynths into skin And find my way into your soul You bless me in the satisfaction Of natural reaction Without holding back for fear of distraction I cannot distract that which the spirit commands of me Blaz...

Found myself strolling down a sentimental street With too many complexities plaguing the vibes between you and me I tried to keep it discreet, but there's nothing quiet about my personality Far too much chaos and calamity clammoring underneath And I'm sorry my heart only operates at 250 'Cause where I thought you'd be accepting instead it turn to resenting and now I'm stuck scratching my head at the mess of the state you left me And that nice guy facade you kept defending Well it's clear cellophane now with the cold front you've been sending Honestly I'm done pretending you meant any of what you said Instead of acting like the signs were misread Like I didn't fall for all the bullshit you fed Like I didn't let your feelings fuck with my head But go ahead, Keep preaching that you're retrograded When really you let your flame burn red And now you're burnt out and faded with a heart half dead I always said you'd regret i...