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Just stop Stop following my social media Stop tapping thru my story quickly to know what I've got going on, but not enough to invest fully into caring Stop liking the same poetry I like on our IG feeds Stop looking like that Stop archiving Stop disappearing Stop reappearing Stop being in my head Stop making me cry Stop Stop STOP

Some days I find myself barely hanging on by the fingertips With nightly prayers thumbing softly through fleeting thoughts of never waking up Sometimes I beg for a massacre between someone's lips To slit my throat with soggy truths That none of us make it out of here alive anyway And maybe I'd be a little less lonely on the other side Where promises are never broken, Plans are always kept, Where I wouldn't have to worry about another pathetic night left unslept Waking up an unkempt reminder That time knows only how to wither and decay How matters of my heart's affections Know only how to lessen and stray Another one of life's lessons, they say Favored student With straight As Even amidst every L I've caught Cover to cover You could call me self taught Distraught beneath a calm surface You smile when you're happy, While I smile with purpose

Dear emotionally unavailable cis man, Please stop pursuing women just because you think you can Please look the other way when that Queen walks by Head held high Lead by her Highers with every step She needn't any hires to apply to some relationship To make her get distracted and forget The real reason she's been Heaven sent Please do not cast her your devious eyes Nor your white lies about all the things you'd like to share with her in this life Please do not inquire her Instagram handle Via mindless movements of your hyper-masculine mandible That you may instigate Some sullied attempts to relate To the beauty of her life's purpose She is as stunning as she is resilient Survivor of her emotional duress Insecurities transmuted, still exist Beneath the surface to some extent Still, She is a killer in those stiletto pumps She's got no time for you or any chump To come a-knocking anytime they're craving a midnight hump Casual sex is a dime a dozen So go find some p