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I hung around waiting for another to use me The way he did There was something about his brand of abuse That somehow made me feel alive Still invisible But held together by the glue of his gaze When days blurred into nights And I disappeared into bottles The message imprisoned behind my fractured glass read "Save yourself, girl." And so I did.

Found myself strolling down a sentimental street With too many complexities plaguing the vibes between you and me I tried to keep it discreet, but there's nothing quiet about my personality Far too much chaos and calamity clammoring underneath And I'm sorry my heart only operates at 250 'Cause where I thought you'd be accepting instead it turn to resenting and now I'm stuck scratching my head at the mess of the state you left me And that nice guy facade you kept defending Well it's clear cellophane now with the cold front you've been sending Honestly I'm done pretending you meant any of what you said Instead of acting like the signs were misread Like I didn't fall for all the bullshit you fed Like I didn't let your feelings fuck with my head But go ahead, Keep preaching that you're retrograded When really you let your flame burn red And now you're burnt out and faded with a heart half dead I always said you'd regret i...

It is far too difficult to understand why we pine for those who hurt us, Why we allow our love and energy to be expended on those who will never love us back ..at least not in the way we need to feel healthy and nurtured Just remember that a seed must first break before it sprouts, And that a flower bud needs rain to bloom. -rs.darko

I buried my face in the clothes you left behind Foolishly hoping some scent remained in them for me to miss, Desperately clinging to the fibers like they couldn't accept the terms of our goodbye, Like they couldn't forget the quiver of our last kiss Faded polaroid photos.. Snapshot facades convicted in a thousand lies of happiness Even pictures could see that those memories were never meant to last And finally they and we could rest To be honest, I barely recognize the man from those photos And I've forgotten who that girl is...