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The brightest star always shines and saturates the air with her warmth Touches the farthest reaches of space where, even then, She sparkles like a beautiful gem against the night sky Only pure darkness could enhance this spectrum of light and color Filling it with a rainbow of precious moments Of smiles, and hugs Of comfort, and love Of irreplaceable sentiment Though a stranger to me, I could share in your light Never catching onto your onslaught of darkness.. For each dusk, rises a new dawn And though she's gone, her sparkle will live on for all to see She was beautiful, and though I didn't know her well enough to take away the emptiness of the black hole that grew inside her, I will always allow her warmth to live inside me And spread the kindness of her words to me, The spectacular radiance of her positivity In loving memory Monica.

She sleeps under a blanket of darkness Freckled with the sparkle of God's fireworks Where the earth meets the heavens, But you can't tell where one ends and the other begins It is here that she is happy It is here where she finds hope Here the silence doesn't scare her And she is never alone I thought home was where the heart is, But really it is where your heart can grow Where your seeds can turn to stems turn to branches turn to fruit Until their turn to be rightfully sown

Brain tired and dead Everything thought has already been said Where is my muse? Still bitter and bitching from my mental abuse I'm sorry and still full of excuses Nothing to show but a collection of exes Now I've vexed myself into a standstill Hand well acquainted with the perch upon my windowsill Is there a life beyond this daydream still? Always hungry, soul famished, can't get my fill Led Zeppelin lyrics like fortune cookie crumbs Chiseled a fingerprint atlas upon my thumb, Life's lessons on my tongue And with a drippy drop it leaves me feeling numb I never said I was a good girl, but I'm a soul with good intentions Always skated by with an honorable mention Now I'm slipping down a blue ribbon road with red lining Gold star pin, but I'm not shining My faint glimmer follows as I chase the sun Like on a merry-go-round I'm dizzy and spun Lain out and gutted with my stitches undone And maybe some say "vulnerable" like they

A sunkissed morning, cold, crisp against my face Chills run down my spine Awaken my senses Goosebumps overcome my damp skin The clouds roll in, Looks like rain... The smell sets in, You know that smell like the memory of an old friend She reminds you of summer And those warm nights She would come and grace you with her presence That gentle trickle upon your back The slithering descent of her companion Droplets accumulate on your eyelashes; your lips Like a decadent taste of escape... Come back to me, sweet lover Come back.

You stole from me like a paramour steals a lover My soul and mind and gift of words uncovered To think how life could be if simplest pleasures found My heart's good will my fingertips shall hound Useless tools of sloth! Forever envy all works past The immortality of most all thought and spoken now could never last Forever trapped within this idle brain, the fire now diminished A young heart wounded for talent lost and never finished A prayer leaks my lips to find its place among The merciless deaf ears of timeless songs unsung