My Fear of Falling Invested

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My words cut into my own flesh
Like when I said, "I love you"
When I knew I could only be second best
Romantically relentless
Sadomasochist
For the pain with which I'm obviously obsessed
A slow digress
As I start to undress
It was so much more than sex
The way we seemed to spiritually connect
Still lead to an inevitable descent
Money and time spent
On the plight of emotional investment

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