Situated

Honestly, this doesn't feel very situated

Fixated maybe on the hope of feelings being reciprocated

I'm up at 6am contemplating

If this is more friendship than dating

Or if I'm simply satiating

That itch for codependency

Hopefully waiting

For these emotions to grow into something less complicating

Both of us showing interest

Neither one ready to attempt to invest

I try not to think of what may come next

Fully enjoy your presence in each of our moments

I say I'm married to the grind

Really I'm committed to my time

And this is quite unlike me

To not want to make you mine

Because you occupy my mind

More often than I'd like to admit

I'm taking things slow to know this won't be something I'll regret

If resentment is our inevitable descent

I'd rather keep you as a friend instead

Because this love I feel doesn't outweigh my respect

In my opinion, that's a harder thing to get

The grammar of our body language may get my lips wet

But a tongue well-versed in rhetoric

Can stimulate my intellect

I cannot say I'm not happy where we're at

Taking mindful footsteps in tall grass

Tell me that we'll go wherever we can grow

How the Wild never stops though it doesn't move too fast