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I want to tell you "fuck you" I do.. But the only words to escape did not describe the hate Seething at the brim of my eyelids Okay, "hate" is strong and mostly inaccurate Because I really only hate feeling so foolish "Fuck this shit" "Fuck me" I can't close these heavy things Without envisioning your smile behind them I want to say any of this to you, But all I could construe From this scene of trite obscenities is "I miss you" And "What did I do?" I've never been so confused As to how somebody could feel as deeply as you do And still turn both eyes blind To the massacre such affections could possibly leave behind Add me to the collection of heartache in your wake Tell me that it was not my love you wished to take Or hers, or hers, or hers.. Tell me about how your disclaimer helps you sleep at night Even though I know it still keeps you up Analyst of all things thought and yet you still cannot...

"Things remain dark when you're looking thru closed eyes Blindly crashed and burned after one too many rides Now capsized and broken against salty altlantic tides.. Still, I taste freedom in the wind, Sultry touch of sunshine upon my skin And thru this winding road it's been A slow repentance of my faults and sins, Tho it's been some time since I captured that pretty smile in my Polaroid prints Back when we were on the fence Between living life or death Whispers of hidden truths muttered underneath my breath With a guilty heart pounding symphonies behind my chest Back then I wore it best upon denim patchwork sleeves Rolled up in dried tobacco leaves Still I exhale and release Staying lost in daydreams and moonlight reveries." - R. Darko™ Written 2/17/18

There is a warmth of merriment amongst the winter chill Frost preys upon my pain as it creeps up from the windowsill Mind wanders, sorting through usual stress Buried under paper piles Spending my worthwhile Cleaning someone else's mess Hard to remember around this time How incredibly blessed we are The best lessons are the ones learned without intention Never sought, yet somehow they find us Remind us of a time when winter outlived summer, Dreams outgrew our wonder, Rain drowned out our thunder, And darkness seemed to live on forever Now in the distance, I see a faint green and red glimmer A guiding Light home for every prodigal sinner The colder weather gives us a reason to cuddle up together Appreciate getting close, Enjoy the silence of a first snow Gloved fingers interlacing show The only feeling we should cover up Is the chill between our toes Open up Your arms, your hearts, your home You're not Selfish, overwhelmed, alone Give up (the pursuit o...

Cozy like my favorite cardigan, Turned cold as winter chill The kind of weather which calls for a sweater, Making me crave your comfort still.. - rs.darko

If you want me to love you, prepare to be written about Prepare to be addressed infinitely to the souls of others who will recognize you as either the hero, or the villain My most precious piece of heart, the half I choose to stitch into my sleeves Prepare to be my voice box when the salt of tears have corroded my esophagus And my gut has transformed into a pile of wet needles Dive into me instead like a pile of leaves Prepare to be the sun, the moon, and all which surrounds them Prepare to be burned at both ends Whether for blessings or for destruction Be born anew every morning And die again in my arms at night Let me love you Let me make you the thing of dreams and legends Let me whisper of your darkness into naked ears And show them how to bathe in the solace of your Light - rs.darko

He wanted my Light, Then covered his face in the presence of my shadow.. Realizing mine was a mere reflection of his own. That he was the sun burning up in glory, and I was a thief in the night, awake to tell his story.

When he said he needed space, I gave him moons and stars. But nothing was enough to take away the emptiness in between, To replace his desire for distance with a desire to make me his world. I still love him the way the moon loves the sun... From afar, in the shadows where his Light still illuminates me with a blush across my cheeks. ☀️🌎🌙 - rs.darko