Why

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Why haven’t I blocked you?

Why do I still talk to you

When you chose to walk away

Even when I begged you not to 


I’ve cut other cords before no problem

Was halfway out the door myself

Wouldn’t have even stopped them

…with you it’s different

Not just a problem, a sickness

A condition, I can’t help it

No matter how much madness inflicts,

I just can’t quit

Heartache addict..

I prefer the white noise static between us over silence


It kills me slowly

Seeing your number across the screen

I deleted your name at least

Just to imbed your number in my memory

Like carvings in my heart

I’d have to cut this whole tree down just to tear your initials out


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