Love Me Long Time

Stop Asian hate

But they don't really hate me, right?

People love me, love me long time

Love how cute I am when I dress up quirky, sexy

Cosplay kitten

Got them smitten to come and kiss me

Lightly spank me in a pressed and pleated fantasy

"Accidentally"

Grope my tits

With greasy little fingertips that slip

He laughs and says

"Oops, don't tell my wife about this"

Suddenly I'm the keeper of his sleazy secrets

His favorite pornhub tab with most frequent visits

Sure, I dressed up this way on purpose

Rolled my uniform up knowing somebody might notice

There's this thing called fan service

So I guess they can't help it

Because they're fans

Of a cute ass when they see it, squeeze it

Like it was meant for them

Adults who swim

Try to come for a dip often

Supposedly,

They just want to make me feel special

Make heaven of such an angel

Make me forget the struggle

To be seen as anything other than a pretty play thing

Pretend they idolize me as they fetishize me

In thigh highs and folded knees

This is a game I've been playing

Since before I was a teen

I didn't even see it, or know what to call it

I just thought it was common for people to comment

And ask "what are you?"

"You look so exotic…"

Most men don't even know I'm not fully Asian

Just a shiny pretty token

Of slanted eyes, full lips

Soft thighs and wide hips

Apparently with no worth to speak of

Because once the fantasy was over,

So was their love for me

As I faded into yet another jaded memory

Of a good time with that Asian girl

It's so funny how so many men have the audacity

To condemn a woman for her sexuality

As they simultaneously exploit her for it

I have been a fetish since before puberty even hit

Before I even knew what that meant

Imagine everytime I wore pigtails

The male attention I'd get

Blame it on daddy issues

Or the age I was sexually assaulted at

Part of me thought I liked it

Confused sexualization for admiration

Only learning of love through predatory seduction

Fed into the hype of the anime girl archetype

When I'm not even Japanese

-the only version of myself that ever felt seen 

So I ironed the frizz

From my Spaniard heritage

Proudly wore my Hello Kitty hat

Thinking it gave me some kind of edge

Or at least some kind of place in this world

So sad

I just, wanted to be loved so bad

I settled for the lust I received solely as an Asian girl